I Want...

 I want to get away. Far away. I want to travel. Meet interesting people who I can not only have fun with but who make me think on a much deeper level than I had ever thought was possible. I want to experience the beauty of this world. To learn things that I cannot learn by just sitting in my bedroom on Saturday night. I want to eat foreign foods that I did not grow up eating. To listen to music that is new to my ears. I want get away. From this life. A life full of social media, editing pictures so they’re “posting perfect”, and college confusion. I want to not only run away from the stress of it all, but to cover it in flames and never look at it again. I want a fresh start. I want to start anew, and create a life that my heart can smile at. I want to tell people how much I love my life, and actually mean it. I want to love myself. I want to say what’s on my mind without the fear of sounding stupid. I want to have a passion… or many passions! Things that I’ll be willing to go after and spend all of my time working towards.

I want to forget how it feels to force a laugh and a fake a smile. I want to feel that I can call someone and know that they’ll answer right away and listen carefully to what I have to say. Someone who wants me to be happy and understands. I want to feel smart. And accomplished. And have the guts to choose a goal and go after it whole heartedly. I want to smile at whomever walks by and say “Hello!” To see someone I find attractive and tell them how much I love their eyes or hair or outfit, and not even give it a second thought. I want to call my loved ones and ask them about their day. Make them feel like they are loved. I want to feel loved.

I don’t know where I’m going with this… I guess I just thought that if I let out all of my wishes and desires, it might give me the confidence and motivation to actually go out and make them happen.

Thanks for reading <3